Releasing My Thoughts

It's been a long time. I never left, I was just dealing with a lot especially having my heart broken to a million pieces, and now having to find it and put it back together. I gave my trust to a person who I eventually found out couldn't stand me but yet they would continuously smile in my face on a daily, and just hurt me and not even care. Used me in so many ways, and yet when they were at their lowest of lows, I was there for them even when I was going through my lowest of lows. Made the mistake of sacrificing for the relationship more so for that person. In the end I got hurt tremendously.  It still hurts and the scar is so deep and I don't think this person cares to know how deep they've hurt me. The lies, the disrespect, the betrayals, yet you had someone else all this time. I realized that I was just a convenient rebound to this person ALL this time, and you know it's cool. It felt like a slap in the face and like the person was saying fuck me and everything I stand for. I learned my lesson though because I'm healing from this. I'm still angry but and I guess that's normal but I'm healing from this. Took so much from me and all I got was hurt, and pain. Wish you the best.